Disasters were our turning points, Growth is most painful
when you resist it. - by Andrew Matthews Follow Your Heart
This blog is solely for my ranting, my illustrations on fun, laughters and
tears I had with my love ones, some silly story-telling of my life in this
small island, some thoughts on love and dreams and movies and songs and
manga /animes and not forgetting yummy food that I'm fortunate to come
across with. Apologies if my ignorance ever hurt anyone. Cheers =)
wow, I am amazed by how humans know how to paint a beautiful picture to everyone to cover up his own ugliness. I am amazed by how clever one could be to make the victim the murderer, and the murderer the victim. But I guess that's the reason why there's such things as Law and Justice. But no matter what a lie is a lie, you can go about all pains to make your lies work for people to believe you but that just goes to show how coward you are needing to lie for people to believe you. I always said I believe in Karma, what goes around comes around. I supposed I've gotten my own karma for a silly mistake I'd once made. So I believe it. If being truthful is stupid then I rather be stupid. If being real is letting yourself being taken advantages of by your friends, then I rather I live to be who I am and let myself be taken advantages of. Ultimately, I knew I live my life knowing what kind of person I exactly am. And it's just too much sadness and too pitiful to live your life needing to create lies for people to love you, to hang out with you and to think you're nice. It's just too cowardy, too pitiful. Sad to say, I can't help but feel sorry for you. Having a life filled with lies, it must be tough. Create whatever stories you like to on me, seriously, I am who I am and I dun need to lie about what you did or I did. Get a life please, not get lies to get a life.
It's a bright sunny Sunday morning and I am supposed to get to bed as usual but I'm not. haha! Thought I should just update some happy events and let's start with the most amazing one first! =)
21 Sept 2010 (Tues) - Wedding of Yong Seng and Dilys
Went for Yong Seng's beautiful wedding dinner at Marina Mandrin Hotel and we had lots of nice food and fun! Yong Seng's wife is so pretty! (That was the first time I saw his wife... heez...) Anyway, Weddings are always happy occassions and this month I knew many who gotten married! okie lah, not really many but I knew of like 3 weddings of office's people already.
There.... do you think I look super sleepy?! LOL! I slept like more than 12hours that day till my eyes are puffy! Didn't know I look so bad until I saw Chee Meng uploaded all these photos!! OMG. LOL! hahaha... as usual, shortest of the group.
Wish Yong Seng and Dilys happily ever after! Not forgetting, 早生贵子 (okie I'm sorry, I hope I didn't make up this 成语 wrongly... lol.)!!
18 Sept 2010 (Sat) - Meet up with Darling Girls Joo & Kris!
Finally Joo, Kris and I meet up! Sadly ah xi and siying couldn't make it =( We had our own pre-celebration of Mooncake Festival and some kite flying at Marina Barage! omg, kite flying! Loves.
I only flew a kite once so far, and that's when I was 5 and I went with my family. After that, I always wanted to do it again..... I just didn't have a proper chance.... so finally... (read on, some hillarious stuffs happened in the end!)
Anyway, before meeting Kris, Joo and I went for some shopping of kites and lanterns etc etc etc.. Shared a nice lunch while chilling out at a restaurant at Bugis illumma:
Yummy Prawn Dumplings Ramen and the so-so fried chicken!
The Sky full of kites at Marina Barage!!!!!!!
And it reminds me of this Japanese Movie I always love, title Koizora. In Chinese is 恋空 (lian kong), which means In Love with the Sky.
We spent a few hours flying kite and playing with our lanterns, chilling out under the lovely cooling sky at Marina Barage with Kris' 3 other friends... It was meant to be a kite flying session and a mooncake festival celebration! Ended up all of us never bring/buy mooncakes except for Kris' friend Edric (If I hadn't remember the name wrongly... pardon me if I did! oops =x) who brought One Snowskin Durian mooncake.... ermm.... yes. it's durian... sobs. LOL!
And I think I really have no affinity with kite flying... Unfortunately, dear Kristie happily released that big roll of string to the end and the kite flew away........................... And I have not touched the kite at all!!!! LOL. oh well, next time perhaps!
Anyway, I guess I was just not meant for it. When Joo and I were buying the kite, she decided to choose the one with the Cartoon Tiger print... It immediately reminded me of Tiggy. I didn't wanted it... especially when I decided to pay for the kite and keep it for myself... but I didn't know how to tell her... I thought it didn't really matter as long as we have the kite and everyone's happy and after buying it I decided not to bring it back anymore... well, it flew away... with the wind, into the sky and out of my sight... hahaha! I didn't feel upset or anything, just thought how interesting life could really be. hehe =p
Spongbob lantern for Joo and Ultraman lanterns for Kris & I!
Ultraman saves the day!!
みって！ほんとに可愛いです！ =D
oh! Personally I prefer those paper lanterns which we can light it up with candles to this kind of electronic one. but unfortunately we gotten this type as we do not know if we could light candles at marina barage. it's still very adorable after all and I love it! Just that I really really miss those times when I was younger and we went out in a group at the nearby park to eat mooncakes, chillout and play with candles, sparkles and lanterns! well, nowadays, the people no longer enjoy this festive mood. sad to say... =(
My Ritz Carlton Dark Chocolate mooncakes! This has been my all time favourite! Love it!! Sadly I just didn't buy enough and eat enough! LOL.
And Bro bought cute Mickey ice-cream mooncakes from Swensens! I thought it tastes a little weird at first but then slowly, find it quite unique and delicious!
Holiday bug? Travel bug?
Many of us were and are travelling! Within this 2 months, I went KL & Taiwan, Prab toured Europe 40 days, Sylvia Khoo & Monster Wang went Korea, Meimei went Japan, Lovely Ah Boon going Las Vegas, Uncle Tony, Cun Cun & Gege, and Chee Meng will be going Taiwan this month and next month too! Year end Sista Janet will be going to Europe for holiday too and again in November I'll be heading to Sabah! OMG!!! LOVES LOVES LOVES TRAVELLING!! =D
And besides loving to travel, I love being pampered with souvenirs from my lovely friends! =D
Mickey Cookies from Japan Disney! 美味しいね! Mei Mei ありがとう ございます! =D
Mask & BB Cream from Korea! Thanks a lot Monster Wang! I Love it =)
Beautiful Purple Shoe for hanging Jewellery! From Madrid! Love it!! Thanks a lot Prab! =D
I have nice and lovely friends, don't I? =)
24 Sept 2010 (Fri) - Late Night Movie with Sista! =)
Yes!!! I always love Donnie Yen's movies and him! Love his moves and he's really really good at all these martial arts movements that just make me go "wow. wow. wow!!" LOL. and on top of all, he has a well-tonned sexy body. LOL!!! Anyway, aside that this movie was a little 'exaggerating' (afterall, i dunno if everything is real or not), the movie was great! It's just like another kind of inspiring Ip Man show.
Can't wait to watch more! I wanna watch Wall Street, Charlie St. Cloud, Eat Pray Love etc etc etc... oh yah! Did I mentioned I watched Step Up 3 and Grown Ups and they are AWEEEESSSSSOOOOMMMMMEEEEE!!! Yeah, Rikka Loves Movies. Super duper Love. LOL.
Last Photo of the entry... ... ... ...
Update of a recent me!! LOL.
Alrighty, guess I need to rest a bit so I can 'tahan' for my yoga class and a baby's 1yr old birthday party and then my Night shift and then maybe a trip to JB tomorrow after Night Shift and then Waxing & Facial Appointment plus 4hours OT plus a L4D party-of-8 on Tuesday... OMG, packed. I guess I probably really need to take redbulls for meals instead. LOL!
Guess once in a while when I have the time to myself, I start looking back and reflect on the time I've spent with my love ones and myself... Then I realised how blessed I am... For every moments. Thank you =)
I had a really fulfilling week! Went to watch Step Up 3 twice (once 2D, once 3D) and I really really love it! I can't dance... But I know I always love to if I have a chance. and if I have the chance to dance in the future, I'll do my very very best! but.. ermm... a little old to learn dance now though. LOL! hope yoga-ing helps! LOL. Then L4Ds a few sessions... then hanging out with my pals etc etc... argh, not forgetting about working too.
Buring out in Universal Studio - 14 Sept 2010 (Tuesday):
All thanks to Sylvia Wong!!! A treat from her to tonnes of fun at Universal Studio!! She won some U.S vouchers so admission and food are on her!! LOVES!!! Thank you so so so much! =p
Lots of areas not really launched yet... the queues were damn long (for some rides) and the rides lasted less than a min!! 4D Shrek Experience is a Must-Try! wondering what's 4D huh? It's actually 3D movies plus the 'feeling' effects! where the chair moves according to the movies motions and there are water-strays on you when the character sneeze! LOL. kinda cool though... Food at Universal Studio, looks good but taste kinda awlful.. Both of us simply had ourselves burnt under the hot sun.. LOL! but overall, it's still the company I was with that brought the whole experience there cheery and amazing =) I enjoyed myself truly...
This is my favourite picture.. I just thought I was really funny! =D
Alrighty! I really really had so so so much fun! =)
this few days... the pain set in as and when it likes to... I'm doing fine with this strange pain in me... but I really hope soon I'll be free from it.
come to think of it... I've been feeling really really stupid when I begged him to stay and said "I can't live without you..." No, I clearly could... I just didn't wanna face the fact that life goes on as per normal without him. now, I feel so totally stupid. I swear to myself.... Never will I ever say to another guy "I can't live without you"... Never in my life again. But I guess, I probably never really need to.
sigh. I hope he can clear it soon... I just dun understand why the hell do I need to shoulder his problems still when he's clearly none of my business now? stupid stupid stupid bunny. I dun wanna bug him coz I dun think it's my responsibility to do so... but honestly, doesn't he has any sense of shame? especially that he has a new gf now? Can't he just freaking had some balls to clear off his own problems here instead of having his Ex-girlfriend to do so? sigh. seriously, dunno to get angry, to cry or to laugh... can only complain here lor... coz even complaining to friends is not enough.
Anyway, like I always said, I Believe in Karma... What goes around comes around.
meeting the darling girls today and Night shift tonight... ZZZZzzzz... damn it... after one round of L4D and now is 8am I still feel so energetic like as if I'm running on Energiser Batteries =.="
Hakuna Matata! Everyone, smile on a lovely Saturday! Don't frown, becoz you never know who is in Love with your smile =)
omg I'm majorly lack of sleep! LOL. seems like Insomia came back again so I'm sleeping like a few hours a day only... but i'm enjoying every night's activities! L4D and supper time and Party world! exhausted yet fulfiling =)
I just realised I didn't upload my favourite pictures with Doraemon in Taiwan in my previous entries! so here it goes... Meet my friends!! LOL =p
Gigantic Doraemon!! ^o^
Bunny, Doraemon & Friends =) 宝萍 * 小叮当 * 小叮铃 可愛いですか? 好き！=D Visit to Outer Space with Doraemon & Friends! LOL.
Amazing isn't it?! I really really enjoyed myself at the themepark looking and taking pictures at those small buildings of wonders and one of my favourite cartoon characters since young! And millions of thanks to the friending staffs at the themepark who helped me to take photos for me! So grateful... =) I guess this is the only inconvenience of travelling alone. you simply cannot take more pictures with yourself in it! but still, awesome experience =)
09 Sept 2010 (Thursday) - Citi Appreciation Day! =)
yes yes yes! I always love Citi Appreciation Day becoz there's always good stuffs for us! LOL. last yr we had 2 $100 Citi Ezlink Card for Citi Staffs appreciation (but honestly speaking, our department really worked our asses off for the SMRT Cards Recarding Exercise! LOL.) and guess what? This year we're given a $100 Prepaid Visa Card addressed to us by our new Country Head Mr Michael Zink! LOL. I always love the benefits for Citibankers... Actually, Citi is really a nice place to work in! With all fun and wonderful colleagues. Citi is like one big family =) I'm with the bank for more than 3 yrs and all these while it's my awesome colleagues that keeps me going... =p
of coz...... aside for the daily experiences of increasing numbers of ridiculous requests from the customers or the nasty scoldings from them like as if we are just some slaves. I guess it's becoz of higher affluence? I mean, I'm not purposely bad-mouthing anyone but we really have customers who talk to us like as if we're supposed to serve them like slaves... we got to endure really unpleasant nasty words from them! =( but of coz, I'm not saying every of our customers are like this. We have lots of nice customers who simply just cheer us up and made the day better! Thanks for making my day at work! heez... LOL. (i'm getting a little hyper already.. haha!)
Anyway... a wonderful day made lovely by sincere and thoughtful gestures:
Delicious Beccarino Muffin for us, my cup of coffee to keep me awake (LOL.) and lunchbox prepared by the most amazing mummy in the world!!!! ='D
Prepaid Visa Card =) well.... gotta mask out the numbers if you're wondering why is there marker ink on the card! LOL.
I went to buy mooncake today (11 Sept 2010, Sat)!!! There's a Ritz Carlton mooncakes booth at Millennia Walk so I decided to just grab my favourite mooncakes during my break.. it's dark chocolate mooncakes!! With Lotus fillings and a ball of dark chocolate in the middle! LOVES!! Nice mooncakes once a year... Definitely can't miss it!
And it smells great too!! Oh yeah... I know most people prefer snow skin to baked skin mooncakes... but strangely, bunny simply loves baked skins mooncakes than anything else! haha=p
Oh I saw this cute little Pig Rabbit from Bestie Cara's facebook photo album and she was telling me it's a soft toy featured in some korean drama (alright, I never had the patience to watch korean dramas so dunnno what show was that! LOL.) and her dad got this for her niece at Mini toons! Well well... I thought it's really really cute and I wanna get one for myself!! Then...... I remember.... I should save money! =(
so.... Christmas prezzie?!! LOL! I'm so gonna bug bestie to get me this for Christmas but I think she's gonna kill me lah... LOL.
Oh! And I downloaded a few FOC photography apps (or shld call it photo editing apps??) for my iPhone and I was playing with pictures! hehehehehe... but boy! I really love how the effects turned out to be....... =p
Edited with MoreBeaute app! It allows you to smoothen your skin in the picture so I dun look so 'pimply'! Ma chiam Plastic Surgery. LOL.
Created this pic with Polarize. haha! Sadly I got no polaroid cam so this is an alternative! Love it!
And this is using PS Express - A app of Adobe Photoshop for mobile... Not so power can lasso and stuffs though... but can crop, adjust the lightings and colours! LOL.
Alrighty! Guess that's all for updates in this Entry! Hope the pictures 'beautify' this entry a little! hahaha! =p Night shift tonight for me though... =.=
"Time check, it's 7.05 in the morning, the lovely sun is out but the weather is cool. May everyone enjoy this beautiful Sunday with your love ones and this is Rikka the bunny signing off........"
wahahahahahahahahahahahaha!! (ROFL =.=") I think I'm really getting a little cranky. =p
Good day world! And my wishes for the world - Hakuna Matata =)
As I promised! A proper entry on my thoughts and feelings! LOL. =p
. Fun . Food . Eat, Pray, Love! a lot of people said i was crazy and daring (I'm well known timid rabbit! extremely scared of darkness! hehe=p).. to travel and take a plane for the 1st time (yeah yeah, quite sua gu but true i really never had taken a plane before... lol.) and made this 1st time travelling alone. a lot of people asked me, isn't it weird etc etc... I don't feel so! I mean, sometimes it's really good to have urself all to urself and do things any ways you want and not needing to compromise anyone else. I had always been a giver, or so i thought... so this time, having to be a giver to myself only, having myself make my own decisions, just myself... feels.... amazing. many told me they are proud of me... becoz this is probably the 1st time I'm truly doing something for my sake and the 1st time I'm truly making decisions on my own. and yeah... i dun deny... all those incidents, really gave me much strength... so much to be myself once again.
anyway, in Taiwan there's this bank's advertisement running on TV very frequently. About this girl who shops alone, dines alone, travel alone etc etc.. she was on the phone with her friend when she commented “一个人很奇怪吗？不会啊！”
I felt exactly like what she mentioned... except that... I really really hope I could stay in Taiwan longer!!!!!!!!!!! yah, damn it, my trip was only 5 days becoz it was planned a little too last minute. LOL.
Anyway... before Taiwan I went KL for 2 days.
Day 1 - Stay a Sista Janet's place. and many thanks to Janet's mother who drove us around!! 1st day was High Tea at this Cafe name Delicious, Shopping at OneUtama, then followed by a nice western dinner at.... ermmm... I dunno where. LOL.
Day 2 - KL was absolutely fabulouso! After a super yummy prawn mee for breakfast, we took MRT train on our own and went to Aquaria!! LOL. yeah... it's just like Underwater world but I really really enjoyed myself looking at those amazing fishes and animals living in the sea... it was awesome! Then dinner in a nice cozy restaurant =)
Day 3 - Set off real early to KL airport for my 10am flight to Taiwan. Thanks to Janet's Mum who helped me booked the taxi service to airport! =) Was a little anxious yet excited! lol. But I really really love that independent feel. it was... perfect! Met this very nice Taiwanese Uncle Auntie couple on the plane. They sat beside me... and they really made my flight alone to Taiwan less scary =) Though we didn't talked much, but that short conversation really made me feel safer. There's many friendly and nice people in Taiwan. In my whole Taiwan trip, I came across already 2 aunties who talked to me and told me what cautions to take, just like talking to a daughter. sweeeetttt.... we are strangers, but friendly strangers.
Anyway, I guess I'll probably not gonna to list out all the way till Day 7. If not I'm gonna bored all of you reading here! LOL. haha=p I visited Taipei 101, and Shida Night Market on the 1st day. 2nd day was visits to LongShan Temple, Sogo Shopping Centres, Zhong Xiao Dun Hua Areas (where I went Ding Tai Fung for dinner!! Yeah!!) and Ximending. 3rd day was to 小人国 (themepark) and Wufenpu... 4th was the most amazing where I made my way to 九份 (Jiu Fen) and Shilin Night Market!! Sadly, last day becoz I need to check out from Hostel and too much luggages, I only hang around Taipower Station areas and then down to airport. Alright, I dunno if the orders of visits are correct but nevertheless, I enjoyed myself so truly at all these places! And looks on the Taiwanese people faces when I replied "Yes I came here alone"... PRICELESS. I just... overnight... felt so proud of myself. LOL.
can't bare to leave but have to. For some particular reasons, I kept having an urge to find jobs overseas... so that I can work on achieving my passions and goals.. especially setting up the business. sigh! but sadly, the cruel reality of constraints has to hold me back for the time being...
. Laughters . Tears . Dreams . these few days, strange thoughts and feelings have been popping up again. I mean... it's just strange. NOT negative. sometimes I find it very hard to control certain feelings in me... Maybe to some people, being a more sensitive person is being a saddist to them. but to me, being more sensitive is a strength of mine. it's a unique trait of mine I supposed... I mean... I supposed I'm actually being loved for this. anyway, I had sudden thoughts of life cycle... it gave me goosebumps. Have you ever wonder? Why was 'life cycle' ever created? I see myself from being a kid to a teenager, to an adult and I visualise myself growing old... I visualise my love ones like my parents as kids to who they are right now. isn't it how amazing human changes and aged? So what happen when someone leaves us in this world... do they just sleep and wake up one day continuing their life in another world that we'll never knew until we reach the same point? or does the person just sleep on and on? I made myself imagine a world where I no longer exists, then where will I be?
And the most frightening issue is not exactly where will I be... But will I be in a place with my love ones again? Will I be in a place where I look at a middle age couple and call them "Papa, Mummy" and a place where I'll protect my siblings, where I'll hang out with my friends, where I fall in love again and again?
I know to most, you will be thinking "wah lau, this rabbit is thinking tooooo much AGAIN!" but agree with me, isn't it how amazing we're being decided (or fated, whatever you call it) to be placed together and experience feelings like happiness, sadness, pain, anger, love and everything?
I dunno why but this feelings brought me to tears.. I am really really blessed with a perfect family. A family that although may weigh heavily on my shoulders, yet a family I want to protect so dearly. I've a daddy who'll gossip, talk about electronics with me, support me and told me never to give up. I've a mummy who'll pack lunch nicely for me to work whenever possible, endure my nonsense and bad temper, joke with me and teach me stuffs... a mummy more soft hearted and kind hearted than anyone I ever knew.. And I have a elder bro who I always respected, someone who shows me nothing should ever get us down, and two sisters who are always there and show me nothing ever tear us apart... And I'm blessed with tonnes of amazing friends who never left me alone in time of difficulties, nice colleagues during all my jobs and wonderful people who were and are part and parcel of my life, who lent me a hand when I need a gentle pull...
And these made me wonder... why were there so many people who never understood the word 'cherish'... and who can't get along with people, with their own family.. and who find faults in every little thing to upset themselves and everyone else? Some stuffs are really minor, do we really need to get angry over it and hurt those around them, including being a part of 'having a bad day' of strangers? and I encountered before customers who called in and behaving extremely nasty for some basic ridiculous issues..
Anyway, Two days later, I went back to office and saw this email... "Our colleague xxxxxx has passed away........" Everyone in my department work pretty closely in one way or another. I heard of this guy, I never seen him before I guess... came across emails of compliments and complaints about him, saw his name in whose and whose team list etc etc... And I found out, he passed away suddenly. I know to many of you may think "aiyah, you dun even know this colleague so shouldn't feel that bad lah." but hell no. I felt... a little pain and kinda sad... Maybe not particularly towards him.. But to imagine if this ever happened to someone closer...
sigh, i dunno. guess I was a little affected and shocked. life is so fragile... It just gave me a responsibility of cherishing every moment even more. appreciating whoever that came across in my life...
. Love . I'm moving on very well now... though i admit i dun wanna know anything abt him anymore and waiting for the day I cld have nothing to do with him. Looking back on 28 June 2010, I almost destroy myself over a guy who never really loved me as he has claims to be. How silly could that be? I dun deny he's still the one I loved most and yet who gave me the most painful experience of my life... I saw myself secretly loving him for almost a year, to being his and so deeply in love, to being rejected just like one of shirts he no longer wants to wears.. From loving deeply to hating him to feeling neutral, from regretting knowing him to being thankful to have known him and him giving me up... I was cursing so much when I thought he's not returning what was owed.. to this point I am like... "whatever lah.. if he can return will be good, if not then I'm just pure unlucky lor..." Now I see that it was mainly not him not wanting to, but he's just not capable enough to. Ah Li jie jie is right... no point upsetting yourself over something you can earn back.. If he could betray his conscious to do such a thing, then he's just proving you're better off without him.. For he is not even a reliable and capable person to being with. And when one day anyone asks you about him, you will speak nothing but the truth. He can lie to millions of people, but he and you both know the Truth and the truth that he can't lie to.
sounds very chim hor? After ah li jie jie said this to me... or rather something similar lah... I had been thinking about it for days... yeah, why bother feeling upset over something I could earn back when he's enjoying playing more lies to some others? I should be grateful I see the true colours and better off without a burden and not being part of his lies plan anymore.
coming to the topic of lies... He may not have lied his love for me but He's started lying to me since our Day 1... Day 1 when he wanted me to be his yet he couldn't break off with his Ex becoz he claims of not wanting to hurt her during her exam period and destroy her education.. Then found out the truth beneath this Mr-Nice-Guy lie was that he was staying at her place and he couldn't break up if not he doesn't have a room to stay. And the lies of him going drinking alone and stories about his past relationships. I lived with the guilt of being a 3rd party and hated myself for not being able to control the love for him and held on firmly till he cleared his mess with another girl... then I realised the problem was not just on me but the fact he couldn't have his heart stick to one... and when he left me... the truth besides the excuses he came up with... was he was in love with someone else.
And I really never understood why...... I still love him that much.
I used to believe we both have a special bond... then I realised that special bond was created by me to him and so I could feel him so strongly.. it wasn't a mutual special bond, it was a one-sided special bond to make him feel loved.
Again, I really still never understood why, I love him that much.
He once told me that one of my Ex-es was not the right guy. I asked him if I'd found the right guy this time round... He told me "as right as it could ever be"... Of so many texts he sent me, this was one I could never forget. I once agreed with his sentence and believed he was the man of my life... And now, I'll still agree with his sentence that I've found the right guy... you know what I meant? He really strengthen me overnight.
Alright I dunno if my postings above gonna made anyone feels that I am being defensive or whatever... I just wanna make my point across to girls who think like how i used to be... There's no point holding on and torturing yourself with anyone, or even thoughts of anyone. And that 'anyone' who is ever worth your life, will not put ur through the pains of thoughts.
just like the famous saying goes "No one is worth your tears, the one who is will not make you cry." of coz, when we mentioned cry in this phrase, it's Not tears of Joy. lol.
I shared my experience, thoughts and feelings of this relationship, was not to prove anyone I was Right or I was a victim or to put him down... But for those who's finding life hard to get by after getting out a relationship. Every thing happens for a reason... and this pain of loving him happened on me for a reason and got me stronger.. of coz i dun deny i feel like shit keeping everything to myself so I decided to release it on my blog since I dunno who and how to pour out my feelings out... then again, this blog is all abt me so it's all my thoughts and emotions...
anyway, as i said... so dun give life a hard time. be strong though I know it's hard. as every pain that we survived from, made us stronger.
And of coz... for those who's stupidly like how I used to be, waiting for him to love you back again is pointless. move on and find urself deserving someone better. of coz if he's meant to be he'll be... (alright for my case it's not lah huh... at least I'm pretty sure becoz no matter what aspects I look at, it's really better off for me without him lah... lol.)
Honestly speaking still, If one day I could turn back time and live my life again, I will still choose to fall in love with him. even if it meant I need to go through the pain like this again. Because my love was true and true love is hard to come by... Even though I know his love may not be as true lah huh... but at least for me to truly love someone... I never truly loved anyone except for that particular two guys.
And while I'm enjoying and cherishing every moment, I silently pray for one day I'll meet this special someone who look at love the same way as I do.. =) Of coz, who can provide more for me! hehehehehe=p
Aloha! I'm back from Taipei for a week already and I'm still having luggages not unpacked! LOL. My bed's piled up with my clothes coz I didn't pack them into my wardrobe.. Everything is in a mess! and all thanks to this lazy bunny who refused to do some housework and simply go work, hang out late for supper, L4D games and celebrations! omg!! LOL. I have so much so much on my mind and so much so much to blog here... yeah I am just too..... busy? LOL. alright, i'm finding excuses. I'm simply going out most of the time. but rest assure, after tonight's night shift I'm have a proper entry okie? meanwhile, becoz I cannot stand the fact that I didn't update my blog.... here I go with the pictures of activities during my leave!
Pictures speak a million words, don't they? =p
LOL! Sudden urge for Mani and Pedi on the 19th August 2010 when I went for lunch with dad & mum & Sis Janice! I simply dragged my sis to do it with me.... Love it! Simple yet attractive.
20 August 2010 (Friday) - Outing with Buddy Jit! Alright, I dunno if I should call him my buddy becoz sometimes he said we are not!! But the hillarious part is whenever we needed each other's help at work we'll term each other as buddy! LOL. he's part of my batch when we first entered the bank. And there, an outing before he moves out of the department after 3 years. while he's going towards a better prospect, I'm still stucked at where I am working hard for my other aspects of life... sigh! The lone survivor of the 13 June 2007 Batch! LOL. Anyway, I really admire Jit (when I say admire it's just a respect kind of admire and not the lovey dovey admire okie!!?? LOL!). He's very talented... well, at least that's what I feel lah. Good almost at everything that I hope I'm good at. Musically incline, good at drawing and designing, electronics, computers, games, photography blah blah blah, he's just good and knowledgeable lor! sigh! Envy... LOL. Only thing he's not that good at, Expressing himself in words I guess? LOL. he'll probably disagree with me if he sees this. I find Jit pretty quiet actually but once he gets crappy, he IS VERY crappy. LOL.
Anyway, Lunch was at Aston in Sun Tec... Then a walk at Funan IT Mall, followed by chilling out at Marina Square's Starbucks before a god-damn good movie - Expandables. Dinner... buffet at Kushinbo!!! LOL.
Alright, Jit, I wish you all the best at the branch! Hope u enjoy urself there! May pretty girls and promotions come your way! LOL.
21 August 2010 (Saturday) - LOL. I decided to be good and stay home before my trip. Real reason behind everything was becoz I haven't packed my luggage!!!! LOL. or backpack? whatever it was... My backpacking ended up a shopping holiday trip in Taiwan in the end... hahaha=p yeah was too lazy to get out so we ordered pizza and finally..... 金枕头 (Golden Pillow)!!! LOL! I always love it. It's Curry Chicken wrapped in a big piece of bread... Fabulouso delicious! Many may have forgotten this but I always love this which was first introduced by FM933 when I was like in... Primary school?! LOL! They are still selling!! Just go yahoo type 933 Golden Pillow, you'll find the order info =)
22 Aug 2010 - Flew from Singapore to Kuala Lumpur!! And I stayed at dearest sista Janet's place in KL for 2 days.
24 Aug 2010 - Flew from KL to Taipei!! 5 days of shopping, sight seeing and holding a map and figuring my way around Taipei alone!!! yeah, alone. it was cool.. shall blog more about it in next entry yah? =)
28 Aug 2010 - Home Sweet Home! Flew back to Singapore with Jetstar! sigh, not a up-to-standard experience though... But still, it's cool to have a flight in dark sky!! Loves!
Experiences in Kuala Lumper... Food, Shopping and Aquaria!! =D
一个人很奇怪吗？不会啊！yes! I really really enjoyed myself alone in Taipei. It was NOT WEIRD at all... Many nice experience... Stay tune for my next blog entry okie?! =)
OMG.. I need to rush for work already!! Enjoy the pictures and I shall update sooooooonnnnn!!! =)
Hakuna Matata!
"Live life to the fullest... I'm living mine, what about you?" LOL... ma chiam advertisement right? LOL!!!! for fun only!
LOL! Sudden urge for Mani and Pedi on the 19th August 2010 when I went for lunch with dad & mum & Sis Janice! I simply dragged my sis to do it with me.... Love it! Simple yet attractive.
